The Purpose of Seeking

The purpose of this blog is to give me a place to chronologically record my spiritual journey.  God has really been speaking to my heart over the past year, especially concerning two verses of scripture in particular:

1. Psalm 119:11
"Your word I have treasured in my heart, that I might not sin against You." (NASB)

2. Proverbs 8:17
"I love those who love me; and those who diligently seek me will find me." (NASB)


Long ago I made the decision to give my life to the Lord...but it's only more recently that I've had an increased desire to find out what that really means.   I find myself wanting to know who God is more intimately, wanting to understand His ways more completely.  I am no longer satisfied with simply attending church on Sunday...I want to become a Woman of God.  Someone that God can trust to be obedient to Him in all things.  Wow...I've got a long journey ahead of me to get to THAT place.  But, its a journey that I'm looking forward to with insane amounts of anticipation.


A few months ago God spoke to me with such conviction through Psalm 119:11, that I not only woke up the next morning and purchased an expensive Bible...but had the verse engraved on it.  What a simple truth it is that we cannot live according to God's word if we don't actually know what it says.  Unfortunately, I think a lot of Christians have become content with letting their Sunday sermon provide them with their fill of God's word.  There are about 32,000 verses in the Old and New Testament combined...if a preacher uses 5 different verses every week (and I've heard entire sermons based upon one verse or less of actual scripture), then it would take 6,400 Sundays to hear the entire Bible in church.  Yeah...that's over 123 years.  I don't believe in reincarnation, so if I want to be able to successfully know God's word so that I can abide by it...I better get crackin'.


The second verse, Proverbs 8:17, was also one that God really used to speak to me.  Another simple, simple truth...that if I want to know who God is, I need to seek Him.  Not seek good worship music, spiritual friends or the most popular church in town...I need to seek Him.  I'd like to blame it on the devil and say that he has been trying to confuse me and keep me from discovering God...and I'm sure he does try....but the truth is my own selfishness has gotten in the way of a deep and more substantial relationship between me and my Creator.  My own laziness has kept me looking for Him through other means (especially relying on people who seem closer to God than I am).  


So, that is what has inspired this journey.  Instead of reading a Devotional book (which are a great resource, I'm not knocking them), I'm going to "write" one.  I'm going to devote time and energy to seeking God, and give Him an opportunity to speak into my life.  And if you happened to stumble onto this blog, and are determined to read no further...at least know this:  God loves you with such depth the English language can't contain it.  


Well, I guess I'm a blogger now.  Blog.  Blogging.  Ugh, how I hate that word.  It sounds like a sticky puddle of goop, or how you might refer to a squashed bug.  Maybe it'll grow on me.